I seem to need to blog when I am stressed out. I am fairly certain it has been so long since I posted that my readership has dwindled to nothing. Oh well. I need it for me and not for anyone else anyway.

Joy Anna has not been feeling well. I think we are all a little worried though she is the only one that puts it into words. She has had one test and has another one scheduled for Thursday. The surgery center requires you to pay up front. I can't even set up payments. On top of that, Dean's blood sugar has been bad. The doctor put him on new medicines today. It seems like every other day it is another 100 at the pharmacy. And we have insurance. This month we have had a visit to the ER, a sonogram, 4 office visits, lab work, and a ton of prescriptions and an endoscopy scheduled for Thursday.

The house has not had a rent paid on it since May. We are sinking. I feel like I owe so many people and am just struggling to pay the basics. The house needs to sell so badly. I had had such big plans of being able to help Eric get the things he needed before he leaves for the mission. I guess that won't happen. I am glad he has gotten paid while he has been gone. He'll have to buy his supplies himself.

Joy Anna is paying for almost everything she needs or wants except the doctor. I hate this. I want to be able to do things for her. She doesn't complain.

I was doing really well for a while with my blood pressure. I think that ended this week. I am really feeling stressed which jacks up my blood pressure. I'm not sleeping well. I can't seem to lose weight. I know I need to for my blood pressure and my feet. Carrying me around is killing my feet. I need to see a foot doctor, but that is not as necessary as Dean's blood sugar and whatever this is with Joy Anna.