Not sure how much more I can take

I am worn out- physically, financially, emotionally, mentally. I am still talking to God, so I am not thinking I am spiritually worn out, but I might be.

I feel like I am being pulled in so many directions. I am overwhelmed. Today, I did Eric's taxes. I am getting an extension for mine. If I wasn't going to, I surely am now.

I think we got a 'mail audit' today. I didn't try to cheat anyone, but I guess I made a mistake last year. When we did the remodel, we got the money out of our retirement. We payed tons of taxes on it. I guess I missed a penalty that is now going to cost us $11,000. I am NOT happy.

What is happening to us? Why is every day a different issue that causes us more grief? Have we done something? Are we not doing something we should?

I can barely bay the bills we have now let alone this. When June 1 rolls around, will we have a job? Will we have to go to Corpus and take a job that is not at all what we need? Where do I go to resign? I am tired. I don't actually know how much more I can take. I know everyone says God won't give us more than we can handle, but I don't think that is true. I think he doesn't give us more than he can handle and he can handle a lot. I keep trying to give it to him. I try not to take it back.

I wish we could go back 13 months and stay in Longview. I know I would have missed some delightful people, but maybe we wouldnt be in such a bad way.

I know I was going to try to be positive, but honestly, I can't think of a thing tonight.