bad cast

last night i could not sleep well- the cast was really hurting my hand. i got up and used tweezers and a knife and took a bunch of junk out of it. that gave my hand more room and i finally got to sleep.

this morning i sat with jw. smart boy said my cast was bad- i agree.

friday, finally

this has been a long week. i am avoiding capital letters because my arm is elevated and it is too hard to use the shift key one handed. on wednesday my hand hurt so bad, i callef the dr, he wrote orders for a cast to immobilize 3 fingers. i nearly fainted while they were doing it. not a nice feeling.

thursday we went to the al. it was the last time this year to dress kids. we had a nice lunch afterwards. it was bbq- not bad either, but i sure would have liked sauce from bodacious or big dave's.

today was a long, long, long day. we went to college, then lunch and rest with uncle jiggs and anne, then yearbook, then prom dressing- which almost made us late for play practice, then dinner with the extended family.

tommorrow i am getting up way too early to go do joyanna's babysitting job.

Monday Madness

I guess part of today's madness goes back to Friday night. We had our extended family here (Megan, MaeMae, and Kali). They brought a wonderful chicken dish. Yummy. After dinner we hung out and watched Monk. Fun. Well, it was fun until I sat down on the sofa and scooted myself back on the couch using my hands. The pain was awful. I told them I thought I broke something. None of us really believed it since I was just sitting down. We put ice on it and tried to get my ring off. No luck.

It didn't hurt so bad the next day til later in the day. I tried to grate cheese, but that really hurt. On Sunday I felt a lot better unitl I drov Dean's car. That hurt really, really bad.

After school today I brought ja home to do chemistry then I went to the doctor. My hand is broken in the palm. Now it hurts really, really bad from the splint. He said it was a very odd injury. I had to go get my wedding ring taken off. I hate having to have it cut off.
hurts my heart.

I am so tired tonight. Discouraged, too. I thought I was losing some weight but not by that scale. My blood pressure was better. I am heading to bed now.

The Week in Review

I have been busy with so many things, I didn't even stop to write about a few big things.

On Wednesday Joy Anna started school at El Paso Community College. She is taking English and Modern Dance. She could have taken two academic classes, but she needs a fine art and she loves dance. I thought one class would be good to get her started.

I went to the library and hung out and worked on photos. It was great to have some time just for me to do photography. I got a lot done on Friday during my two hours.

Thursday we did School Bell again. We really enjoy the opportunity to do that. There is only one more week for this year. That is a good thing since we are running out of clothes.

Dean is still job hunting. We have sent out so many applications and resumes. He did get an email back from a job with the city. Hopefullys omething will come of that or the government one. EIther one would be good pay and nice benefits.

We are getting quite a few calls on the house now that we have it for sale by owner. I hope that someone buys it soon. If they did that I could not be so worried about the bills. I wish the government would bail out the people- then we could pay our bills which in turn would bail out the big companies. Seems simple to me.

I have been thinking about writing Dean's old boss a letter. Not the angry one I wrote a few weeks ago but didn't mail. I am thinking of writing and apealing to his sense of right (that is assuming he has one) and asking him to pay Dean what he owes him. My sanity needs that to happen so I can catch up on the bills. The stress is eating me alive.

Joy Anna auditioned for the dinner theatre for the church. She got a part. I am going to do props. I am excited. I ahve missed that. Maybe that will help my creativity. I certainly need to be creative. My photography is suffering because I am really struggling with the creative part where I usually can put things together fairly easily.

January 20

Today was my Papa's birthday. Today Nanny didn't miss him more than normal. She is with him. It did make me miss both of them a whole lot today.

I watched the inauguration today. I think the amount of money spent was slightly obscene especially since so many of us are struggling to pay the bills. Just think how far that could have gone to help the American people- talk about hope.

I do hope one of the first changes would be the realiation that just because our skin is white doesn't mean we are prejudiced. I was greatly insulted by the last prayer of the ceremony. Think of the outrage had a white man made a statement similar to that about a black person. I do believe we have passed a line where the prejudice can not be blamed entirely on the white American. It is very sad.

Joy Anna starts EPCC tomorrow. She is taking 6 hours- English and Modern Dance. I think she is a little nervous. She has everything ready to go. While she does class, I am going to work on photos this week. Maybe next week, I will be able to finish my novel. I am sort of looking forward to a set time 3 days each week where I can devote all my time to photos or writing.

I am really sick at my stomach tonight. Not sure what it is. Maybe a bug. I hope it is over tomorrow. Don't want anything to interrupt my time tomorrow while she is in class.

Window Shopping

When we were kids and just went shopping to look and not buy, we called it window shopping. That is what we did today. JoyAnna and I met her friend Kelley and her mom and dad to look at prom dresses. They tried on at least a dozen dresses each at the first store. Then we moved on to Marshall's and Ross. They had so much fun. When they finally found a dress they liked- they both liked the same one. It was probably a good thing we were not buying today. JoyAnna has made enough money to buy her own -especially because since we were looking in the under $50.00 range. Pretty cool. I found one for me. I am going to be the photographer, so I looked, too. I found one for 16.00. Hopefully, they will still have one in my size in a month or so. If not, I am sure I wil find something.

JoyAnna is losing weight. She looks great. She can wear clothes she hasn't been able to wear in quite a while. I am very proud of her. I am losing some, too. It is not as easy to tell on me.

We are going back to church tomorrow. She really likes the youth. She is going to audition for the youth dinner theatre. If she doesn't get a part, she can always do the tech part. She is used to doing that anyway.

She wants me to rag roll her hair. So, I guess I will go do that now.

Dean's job or lack there of

He has still not heard anything about the government job except that he is qualified. No date for an interview- nothing.

I am trying to keep the faith. It is very hard. In 5 weeks, this job he has now will be over. I guess then we will have to take the job in Corpus. The pay is not great - we are now on pay cut number two and expenses are not going down. We are sinking. This was not supposed to be this way.

I am not sure what else we can cut out. We don't do anything extra.

We are still praying for the right job at the right time.