I used to sing that song- I just wanna be a sheep baa baa, I just wanna be a sheep.
All this week, KLOVE's word of encouragement has dealt with sheep and being led. Firday's was this
But he led His own people like a flock of sheep, guiding them safely through the wilderness.
~ Psalm 78:52, NLT
I posted on my facebook "thankfully He is leading and I can be a sheep and just follow. now if I could learn to be a sheep and just follow"
I thought about this a lot yesterday and today. I started thinking about sheep - they don't have a clue where they are being led. They don't really sit around and complain and whine that they don't know. They just follow. They don't plan what they are taking and where they will take it. They just go. He is going to lead his ship safely. It is going to be through the wilderness. Believe, me. I feel like I am in the wilderness. I need to be like a sheep- keep my head down, follow the shepherd. That means not try to be the leader. Not try to find my own way.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
A nice Saturday
I got to sleep a little late today :) Dean and Eric got up with the dogs. I slept til a little after 8:30 - very, very nice.
My dishwasher is messed up. Not sure why. That means I had to wash a ton of dishes today. While I did that, everyone helped tidy the house. We are still playing catchup from me being sick.
JoyAnna went prom dress shopping with her friends today. While she was doing that, Dean, Eric and I met with Rebecca, a journeygirl missionary stationed here in El Paso. She was with her new fiance. It was great to hear how the IMB really takes care of the journeymen.
After they left, JoyAnna called. They wanted to go downtown, but they couldn't without an adult. I went with them. Joy Anna found her dress. She has been saving her babysitting money. She had shopped and shopped for a dress. Today she finally found one. Her friend Laruen didn't find one today. Maybe tomorrow.
When we got home, Dean and Eric had dinner almost finished. Lauren stayed with us for dinner along with Mae Mae. It was yummy and very casual. They grilled hotdogs and brats. After supper, we went walking. Mae Mae and I went one way with Ranger and Maddie. The girls went the other way with Razzle and Dazzle. We met in the middle. It was really nice to feel like walking again. We did a whole mile tonight.
When Mae Mae started to leave, Ranger decided to escape. It was my fault. I had bragged on him while we were walking. He took off on a run. Dean was finally able to get him to get in the car. It was much better here than in Longview. Not living next to a busy street with fast cars was much better. He just went down a residential street this time. I didn't have an asthma attack, so that was great. Of course I have been having an asthma attack for the last month, but it wasn't nearly as bad as when he got out in Longview.
After that, Mae Mae went home to chat with Megan on the phone. We watched a movie and just chilled out for the evening. Eric got a call late this evening. He has a job interview at Academy tomorrow. Funny thing, one of the jobs he is looking at for IMB is to work at as an adventure specialist and work at a store that sells outdoor things. Maybe another way God is preparing him for his work in the mission field.
My dishwasher is messed up. Not sure why. That means I had to wash a ton of dishes today. While I did that, everyone helped tidy the house. We are still playing catchup from me being sick.
JoyAnna went prom dress shopping with her friends today. While she was doing that, Dean, Eric and I met with Rebecca, a journeygirl missionary stationed here in El Paso. She was with her new fiance. It was great to hear how the IMB really takes care of the journeymen.
After they left, JoyAnna called. They wanted to go downtown, but they couldn't without an adult. I went with them. Joy Anna found her dress. She has been saving her babysitting money. She had shopped and shopped for a dress. Today she finally found one. Her friend Laruen didn't find one today. Maybe tomorrow.
When we got home, Dean and Eric had dinner almost finished. Lauren stayed with us for dinner along with Mae Mae. It was yummy and very casual. They grilled hotdogs and brats. After supper, we went walking. Mae Mae and I went one way with Ranger and Maddie. The girls went the other way with Razzle and Dazzle. We met in the middle. It was really nice to feel like walking again. We did a whole mile tonight.
When Mae Mae started to leave, Ranger decided to escape. It was my fault. I had bragged on him while we were walking. He took off on a run. Dean was finally able to get him to get in the car. It was much better here than in Longview. Not living next to a busy street with fast cars was much better. He just went down a residential street this time. I didn't have an asthma attack, so that was great. Of course I have been having an asthma attack for the last month, but it wasn't nearly as bad as when he got out in Longview.
After that, Mae Mae went home to chat with Megan on the phone. We watched a movie and just chilled out for the evening. Eric got a call late this evening. He has a job interview at Academy tomorrow. Funny thing, one of the jobs he is looking at for IMB is to work at as an adventure specialist and work at a store that sells outdoor things. Maybe another way God is preparing him for his work in the mission field.
Friday, March 27, 2009
brrrrr
I can not get warm tonight. I hope I am not getting sick again. Not that I am really well yet. Today was a LONG day. Eric took JA to school for me. I made it over to the east side and we had a marathon day at yearbook. We made a lot of progress.
I was hoping my computer might get some work today, but it didn't. I guess I am going to have to take it to a repair shop. You just can't imagine how frustrating this is. I had to use Dean's tonight. His doesn't have all the bells and whistles mine does.
I am so tired of not having money to do anything. I can barely keep the bills paid. Ok, I was not going to gripe. Eric is job hunting. Today it was nice when I got home that they had cleaned up the back yard.
tomorrow I can sleep late! I am so excited.
I was hoping my computer might get some work today, but it didn't. I guess I am going to have to take it to a repair shop. You just can't imagine how frustrating this is. I had to use Dean's tonight. His doesn't have all the bells and whistles mine does.
I am so tired of not having money to do anything. I can barely keep the bills paid. Ok, I was not going to gripe. Eric is job hunting. Today it was nice when I got home that they had cleaned up the back yard.
tomorrow I can sleep late! I am so excited.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Computers are a pain
I am having computer problems. I am typing this on Dean's borrowed one. Not one I can use regularly. My computer has decided to not stay on. No matter what I do, it goes off before it ever comes on. I desperately need a new one. There is no way I have the money to buy one. With out a computer, I basically have no photo biz.
This is not what I needed right now. This is the only way I have to make money. With out it, I am not going to be able to keep helping with trying to catch up.
I have photo orders to get out and I have a HUGE photoshoot on Sunday night. Of course, I will not have a website either. I don't have the $100 it takes to pay for my hosting site for the next year. It is only still up because I have an order that I haven't been able to process first because of being sick and now my computer.
I am trying to be positive, really I am. The only thing I can think of as positive is how good it would feel to chunk the computer across the room and then stomp on it. :) See, I am trying.
Today, I made a dent in cleaning the house. I have been so sick, it really wasn't worth it to even try to clean. I still have lots to do on it, but it is on its way to better.
I saw something interesting on the news today. We have a 'dustcast' Yep, they discuss the wind and how much dust we are going to have blowing. No wonder I can't breath. I told Dean last night I felt like I was breathing sand. No wonder! I am considering getting some of those masks. Maybe that would help me breathe.
This is not what I needed right now. This is the only way I have to make money. With out it, I am not going to be able to keep helping with trying to catch up.
I have photo orders to get out and I have a HUGE photoshoot on Sunday night. Of course, I will not have a website either. I don't have the $100 it takes to pay for my hosting site for the next year. It is only still up because I have an order that I haven't been able to process first because of being sick and now my computer.
I am trying to be positive, really I am. The only thing I can think of as positive is how good it would feel to chunk the computer across the room and then stomp on it. :) See, I am trying.
Today, I made a dent in cleaning the house. I have been so sick, it really wasn't worth it to even try to clean. I still have lots to do on it, but it is on its way to better.
I saw something interesting on the news today. We have a 'dustcast' Yep, they discuss the wind and how much dust we are going to have blowing. No wonder I can't breath. I told Dean last night I felt like I was breathing sand. No wonder! I am considering getting some of those masks. Maybe that would help me breathe.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
I am really, really sad
We met Marie, Megan and Kali back last summer. Over the last few months, we have gotten really close. Close like there is seldom a day we don't see them. We knew today was coming when Megan and Kali would go to Japan. We were all perfectly happy with them here and our 'El Paso Family' being the three of them plus us.
Today was heartbreaking. Marie's husband and older daughter passed away within 10 weeks of one another about 11 years ago. Today, watching her put Kali and Megan on the airplane was horrible. I can not even imagine her pain.
Sure, Eric is going to be gone for two years, but I have Dean and Joy Anna with me. Please be praying for them. Kali was so upset - she has had her Mae Mae with her all of her life. They have lived together for most of it. Please just be praying for all of them.
Today was heartbreaking. Marie's husband and older daughter passed away within 10 weeks of one another about 11 years ago. Today, watching her put Kali and Megan on the airplane was horrible. I can not even imagine her pain.
Sure, Eric is going to be gone for two years, but I have Dean and Joy Anna with me. Please be praying for them. Kali was so upset - she has had her Mae Mae with her all of her life. They have lived together for most of it. Please just be praying for all of them.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Reflection
today has been a very reflective day - not very productive.
I have been thinking alot about moving to corpus. Having the the opportunity for a fresh start would be really awesome. I think. We thought so last time, too.
I am working so hard to catch us up financially. I think sometimes it is all I think about. Can we make it on the offer he has now? Make it, yes. Much more, no. So, here is my thought: This is the only job offer. We have prayed and prayed about it. So, say this is where we are supposed to go. We take the job at this amount. We make tithing a priority. We will be obedient to God. I strongly believe he will take care of us.
So, now, what do I do? Do I start packing? Do I start over in the garage and get rid of more stuff? At the moment, I am not feeling up to doing anything physical. So, tomorrow I plan to work on photos and photo biz stuff. Maybe by Wednesday, I will feel better and be able to start working. Two months is not really a long time.
I have been thinking alot about moving to corpus. Having the the opportunity for a fresh start would be really awesome. I think. We thought so last time, too.
I am working so hard to catch us up financially. I think sometimes it is all I think about. Can we make it on the offer he has now? Make it, yes. Much more, no. So, here is my thought: This is the only job offer. We have prayed and prayed about it. So, say this is where we are supposed to go. We take the job at this amount. We make tithing a priority. We will be obedient to God. I strongly believe he will take care of us.
So, now, what do I do? Do I start packing? Do I start over in the garage and get rid of more stuff? At the moment, I am not feeling up to doing anything physical. So, tomorrow I plan to work on photos and photo biz stuff. Maybe by Wednesday, I will feel better and be able to start working. Two months is not really a long time.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
how hot is it?
Ok here I am still trying to be positive. I must confess it is very hard when I am coughing constantly. It doesn't help that it is really hot, too.
Remember the hold comedy routine when someone would say "it is so hot" and the crowd would say "how hot is it?" That is sort of how I was saying it is so hot.
“How hot is it?” You ask. Well, it is so hot that the ice in the fridge door melts. Yep, melts down the door. When it cools off at night, it refreezes and clogs up the dispenser. The next day it repeats itself. Craziness.
I missed church today. I keep coughing and coughing. I didn't want to be a distraction or pass on my germs. I took a nice long nap this afternoon. The fan was blowing full blast. I woke up to find Razzle, Dazzle and Pouncy snoozing with me.
I did a job search today - again. So many of the jobs Dean has applied for and hears nothing. Is this just telling us to on to Corpus? When we decided to come here it was based on pros and cons lists. We each made one. Today I was thinking about another contrasting list. Things we like here and things we liked better back east.
Aside from the big thing - the house - there are lots of other things on the lists. In El Paso we like the sunsets, the mountains, the wide open skies. We like our church, having Anne and Jiggs here, and hanging out with Marie, Megan, and Kali. We like that there hardly any bugs - no waterbugs is a huge plus. We do miss green as in trees and grass. We miss our friends a lot. We miss only 2 hours max to our moms.
Sometimes I wonder why we came. Sometimes I wonder why we can't go back. I know there are a lot of people we met and a lot of things we did that enriched our lives. Had we not come we would have missed them but never have known we were missing them. Maybe God is teaching us something. I am thinking we must be remedial learners as we haven't learned it yet. And so we keep on job hunting and praying about what the next step will be.
Remember the hold comedy routine when someone would say "it is so hot" and the crowd would say "how hot is it?" That is sort of how I was saying it is so hot.
“How hot is it?” You ask. Well, it is so hot that the ice in the fridge door melts. Yep, melts down the door. When it cools off at night, it refreezes and clogs up the dispenser. The next day it repeats itself. Craziness.
I missed church today. I keep coughing and coughing. I didn't want to be a distraction or pass on my germs. I took a nice long nap this afternoon. The fan was blowing full blast. I woke up to find Razzle, Dazzle and Pouncy snoozing with me.
I did a job search today - again. So many of the jobs Dean has applied for and hears nothing. Is this just telling us to on to Corpus? When we decided to come here it was based on pros and cons lists. We each made one. Today I was thinking about another contrasting list. Things we like here and things we liked better back east.
Aside from the big thing - the house - there are lots of other things on the lists. In El Paso we like the sunsets, the mountains, the wide open skies. We like our church, having Anne and Jiggs here, and hanging out with Marie, Megan, and Kali. We like that there hardly any bugs - no waterbugs is a huge plus. We do miss green as in trees and grass. We miss our friends a lot. We miss only 2 hours max to our moms.
Sometimes I wonder why we came. Sometimes I wonder why we can't go back. I know there are a lot of people we met and a lot of things we did that enriched our lives. Had we not come we would have missed them but never have known we were missing them. Maybe God is teaching us something. I am thinking we must be remedial learners as we haven't learned it yet. And so we keep on job hunting and praying about what the next step will be.
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